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So I have been noticing something more and more as time goes on.
The comments section of Youtube videos....more specifically the videos of the more popular Youtubers. Have you guys noticed how much more vicious the comments section has become? I mean, seriously. It's almost scary how mean and hostile people can become.
I know, some of you might say "Oh, that's how the Internet is." But that doesn't make it right at all. Especially not for the people who have to read it every time they visit. Or rather, not for the people who put so much time and effort into making that video. I feel like it isn't fair for them to have to read and endure such negativity. It breaks my heart a little each time to see the negative comments.  Most times I find myself rolling my eyes, but I feel my heart sink every time.
What do you guys think?
Feel free to post your opinions on this matter in the Journal comments below.
Thanks!
And as always, take care guys!
~animedugan :iconanimedugan:
Hey guys!

So my dad's surgery went quite well today minus a few aches and pains from the procedure. Unfortunately, I got sick after we entered the hospital so we had my Uncle (my dad's brother) drive us home ^^; (Me and my gosh dang stupid body :X)

Anyways, I wanted to thank you all for giving my father your well wishes. It truly means the world to me, as he is my closest family member.
He means a lot me, as he was always there for me in both the best and worst of times.

I also wanted to thank you all for all your kind words in one of my previous Journals titled "Confessions: Depression and Sickness." You guys are truly the best, and it means the world to me to see how many people were so supportive :heart:
Love you guys!

And as always, take care!
~animedugan :iconanimedugan:
Hey guys!

I just wanted to let you know that I will be at my father's surgery for most of the day. He hasn't been well these past few months, and the only way that he can get it fixed is if he has this surgery.

Admittedly, I am actually quite nervous for him and am truly hoping that all goes well today. After all, he is the one person who was there for me in the darkest part of my life, and there whenever I needed familial love the most. So I am keeping him in my constant prayers.

Thanks for reading, and take care you guys!
~animedugan :iconanimedugan:
Hey guys.

So this is more on the serious side of things. Some of you may already know this, but for those that don't, this is just a story about what I've been through in my life.

I wanted to confess, that since I was 12 turning 13, I developed a very serious stage of depression. It stemmed from one thing....the death of someone very dear to me. My godfather and my uncle Kenneth Dugan. It was the first funeral I ever went to in my life....and from there, things started to go downward for me.
What I thought was improvement, was actually a symptom of depression. I started getting self-conscious of my body and began working out vigorously, even going on a "diet" of sorts (consisting of no desserts or junk food for about 7-8 years straight). In my mind, however, it wasn't enough.  I thought of myself as "fat" even though it was the complete opposite. On top of that, I wanted to become thinner and overworked myself.

So I took up Tae-Kwon-Do, which, in a sense, actually quelled my self-doubts. It didn't, however, get rid of these feelings. There was a good period of time when I thought that Tae-Kwon-Do was my salvation.....but in reality, it only made things worse. It made me become more and more obsessed with exercise, and I became so thin, it frightened those who cared for me. It took a long time for me to finally admit and realize, that I hated myself. No matter what I did was never good enough for me, and to this day, that still holds true. But I don't hate myself anymore....I am who I am. It took me a very long time for me to feel this way, though. I had no choice but to quit Tae-Kwon-Do and seek medical help for my anorexia, which was quite hard to break, seeing how long it actually took root.

After about 2 years, I finally felt "normal" in a sense and returned to a normal weight for my height and age. But the darkest parts within me rose again 13 months later, after getting my first boyfriend. When my boyfriend and I broke up, I was devastated, despite our claims that it was "mutual." In my heart, however, I continuously blamed myself and spiraled into the habits of bulimia. It was my only means of (it sounds pretty sick now that I am writing this out) "feeling a rush." Very similar to a drug addict, but in a way, it was far worse. For a long time, I was able to hide it, until my father finally confronted me about the matter. Once again, I went for treatment, and after about a year or so, I was able to gain a sense of normality. I still struggle with this habit from time to time, but not as much as I did before.

Despite getting "better" physically, I still remain mentally unstable. My depression roots deep within me, and I know full well that it won't go away completely. There are many other factors that cause my depression, but I will keep those private, for personal reasons.

I will say, however, that there was a period in my life where I wanted to commit suicide. And numerous occasions, I attempted to do so. However, I stopped, being too scared not only of the act, but of myself. In the end, I am glad I didn't do it. There were several people in my life that committed suicide, and left behind sadness and pain for those who cared for them. It opened my eyes to the truth....if I had done the same, I'd only hurt those who love me and those I care for the most in this world.

That's why I say this to you all....do not do anything rash. There are people who love and appreciate you, even if they have a funny way of showing it. Some don't really show it at all. But in the end, they do care. And offing yourself will only cause them heartbreak.
Just know that if you have strong feelings of depression and suffering.....don't suffer alone. There are others much like you. And they are more than willing to talk to you if you need.

Thanks for listening.
And take care, as always, guys.

~animedugan :iconanimedugan:
So I have been noticing something more and more as time goes on.
The comments section of Youtube videos....more specifically the videos of the more popular Youtubers. Have you guys noticed how much more vicious the comments section has become? I mean, seriously. It's almost scary how mean and hostile people can become.
I know, some of you might say "Oh, that's how the Internet is." But that doesn't make it right at all. Especially not for the people who have to read it every time they visit. Or rather, not for the people who put so much time and effort into making that video. I feel like it isn't fair for them to have to read and endure such negativity. It breaks my heart a little each time to see the negative comments.  Most times I find myself rolling my eyes, but I feel my heart sink every time.
What do you guys think?
Feel free to post your opinions on this matter in the Journal comments below.
Thanks!
And as always, take care guys!
~animedugan :iconanimedugan:

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Anne Dugan
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Yep. My name is Anne Dugan :) I love drawing, and have loved it ever since I was a kid. I love to look at other people's artwork, and in each pic that I see, I know that everyone has worked hard to get them the way they are.
I hope you guys enjoy my artwork just as much as I enjoy yours :D
P.S. Do pardon the fact that my artwork doesn't have much background. I am still in the process of learning how to draw it :P
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Happy 2015! Have you guys made a New Years Resolution (a goal for this year)? 

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CHHL Featured By Owner 21 minutes ago  Student Artist
thanks for le fave :>
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JadeElements Featured By Owner 6 hours ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fav! =D
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animedugan Featured By Owner 6 hours ago
Of course! Your work is lovely, do keep up the great work :D
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maedel2000 Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fav!
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animedugan Featured By Owner 1 day ago
Sure thing :aww:
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maedel2000 Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Student Traditional Artist
Hehe:D
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AskSakanaKasai Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist Artist
thank you for the fave :)
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animedugan Featured By Owner 3 days ago
Naturally :aww:
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JocelyneR Featured By Owner 4 days ago
Thank you kindly for the faves, Anne!  :iconflypinkheartsplz:

I am glad that your father is doing good!  :hug:
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animedugan Featured By Owner 3 days ago
Sure thing!
And thank you! I am glad he is doing well too :D
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