animedugan

Hey guys.
Figured I'd post this since probably few will see the update in the description of my newest WIP.
Since the end of March I've been in a bit of a recovery process. From what, I don't really feel I should share at the moment, although some of you might have a good idea as to what it is. To those who don't, please don't take it personally that I am not telling you up front. The situation in itself still shakes me up to this day, and it's definitely not a pleasant experience to share online. I wouldn't want you to get wrapped up in such things or be a downer on your day. If you truly did want to know, perhaps I will share it in the future. Not now of course....but in the future.
All I want you guys to know is this:
I am not giving up on drawing anything. (In fact, it's been a good therapy to get my mind off of things). And I will be okay. I can certainly promise you that.
For now, I hope you all had a lovely International Bunny Day (Easter), and are having a lovely day/afternoon/night wherever you are.
Take care, and I will be around
~animedugan

Hey guys!
Been a long time since I made any sort of journal, and I figured that I'd make one now rather than later (despite it being really super early in the morning....I need to go to bed lol).
I just wanted to thank you guys for being so supportive and patient with me as I went through such an extensive hiatus. It really means a lot to me that you guys were there for me, despite being inactive (in terms of my own artwork) for so long. But that support along with certain parts of my life finally looking up has finally given me the passion and means to keep doing what I love. It may not be super amazing like the works some of my friends and other artists I look up to do on this site, but I am happy with my works and have fun doing it regardless. And that, I believe, is the thing that truly matters most for me.
So once again, I thank you guys for helping me get my passion back and for sticking with me, even in my darkest times.
I love you guys, and as always, take care
~animedugan

Hey guys!
Been some time since I wrote a journal! I know I've been writing a lot of updates, and everyone has been pretty understanding of my situations at home. And I really appreciate and love you guys for that.
I do want to apologize, however, for not posting as much as I had initially intended. I know I tend to promise things, and not really deliver, which I know I should absolutely work on. Whenever I say the word "promise," I wind up kicking myself in the foot. I did have the mini comics drawn out, but with certain circumstances over the year, I lost quite a bit of motivation. And I know that's no excuse. But it is certainly what happened. I have every intention on making mini comics for characters, it'll probably just take some time to do so. And of course, according to one of my statuses, I may wind up forcing myself to start working on stuff. Because I know my procrastination is getting ridiculous So I'm hoping you can accept my sincerest apologies. (I will understand if you don't).
Anyways!
I just wanted to wish you all a Merry Christmas and Happy Chanukah! (Funny how they are both on the same day this year)! I know that 2016 hasn't been the best year for a majority of people thus far....but hopefully the holidays will be a time for us all to try and put that behind, even if it is for a short while.
And with that.....I have to get back to wrapping some presents. Lol
As always, take care guys
~animedugan (Anne)

Hey guys!

Update journal time!

I know, I've made a few statuses about what's been happening in my life, but I figured I'd make a journal with a little bit more detail as to what's been happening on my end. With that said, let's just jump right into it:

Work
So, I know I have mentioned this before, but I did get a new job recently. And no, it's not the tea shop that I said that I was working in. That wound up not working out, which I will get into in a moment. But I work at a clothing store called Forever 21. They seemed to really need people and wound up hiring me and giving me a decent amount of hours to the point where I wind up passing out from exhaustion. Now mind you, clothing stores aren't usually too hard, but the store I work for gets a decent amount of people buying from it. So I wind up hauling loads of clothes from the fitting rooms over to my assigned section (Forever 21 is divided into sections of different styles, but it'll take a bit too long to talk about, so I will spare you from an essay-long explanation ). And that can get very tiring.
Anyways!
The tea shop I got hired at wound up not working out, because they basically took me off the schedule. No, they didn't fire me. But they made it so I didn't have any hours there. And there is a reason for this. Basically, the company bases your hours on your productivity. In other words, the more you sell, the more hours they give you. I wound up not getting them enough sales. And as a result, they completely took away my hours. They said it wasn't anything personal, and I understood. At the same time, I felt a little thrown under the bus, but I knew they weren't doing it to spite me. Which I genuinely respect. So I wound up looking for another job, which wound up being Forever 21. I still shop at the tea shop....after all, I still love their teas.

Family
So this next one, I won't give away too many details. But I will give you the summary of what happened. So my dad has been sick. And he has been for some time. I won't say what it is, but I will let you know that it is treatable. And he will be okay. He says he is okay now, but I still worry about him tremendously. He had to go to the hospital about a month ago (wow, time flies. I was going to say a couple of weeks ago, but now it's been a whole month....geez!), and wound up staying there for a couple of nights for observation. He's somewhat improved since then, but he will eventually need to go to the doctor once again to see what some treatment options are. I will stop it there, since I don't want to get into it too much. But once again, he will be okay. I promise you guys that.

Mental and Physical Health
So this one is a bit more of a sensitive topic for me, but I wanted to let you guys in on a few things going on with my mental and physical health. While my physical and mental health isn't at its best, it's not at its worst. Honestly speaking, however, it's still worrisome. Mentally, I've been better lately, but I still have my share of problems. The most prominent one is anxiety/panic attacks. At my job before the tea shop, panic attacks were a very, very frequent problem (mostly because my job prior to the tea shop was a terrible experience....and I worked there for three whole years, so uh.......yeaaaaaah). Since leaving that job, my panic attacks lessened. But that doesn't mean that they went away.

Let me just, really quick, paint you a picture of what my panic attacks were like.
So let's say, you get one little thought in your head. And this isn't a good thought. It's something that has bothered you for some time.....maybe months, maybe even years. But this thought soon develops another thought. And another. And even more. Until finally, floods of negative thoughts or memories are completely overtaking your mind to the point of literally breaking into tears. And it doesn't stop. Not for a while, anyway. And your body is now incapable of moving without physically shaking.
Yeah.
That's what it was like for me.

I haven't had one of those panic attacks since starting my job at Forever 21, thankfully. In fact, it's been a pretty good distraction aside from doodling and chatting away happily with my dad. I've mostly been giving myself distractions in order to prevent it.
Although, with my shifts at Forever 21, I find that I have less time to eat much or find myself eating at irregular hours of the night. Sometimes, I find myself not eating much at all. And as a result.....I've lost a lot of weight. Honestly, knowing me....that's not a good thing. I know I need to gain some back to be at a healthy weight.....but I'm very, very stubborn about it. I know I have a problem....but I haven't gotten around to try and fix that problem. I know. I'm pretty bad at that. I'll keep trying though!

Artwork
I have been working quite a bit on my art during my free time. Although there isn't much time that I have, I still make an effort to work on it.
And I know I've said this before, but let me say this again, just in case there are some people who didn't see the description in two of my most recent pieces.
I did try and acquire the advanced programs through downloading them onto my laptop and/or my regular computer. But both ran into problems whenever I tried. The computer(s) either got some sort of virus on them or lagged whenever I tried to download the programs. So, for now, I am stuck with the program that I have. It's not advanced in any way, but I am trying to utilize it in the best way that I can. And since it has been a while since a have tinkered with my artwork (you are all aware of the massive hiatus I was on....and I apologize for that), my works might come off as a bit rusty. So do pardon me if my stuff doesn't seem up to par.....it has been a while, after all Either way, I will continue to do my best and have fun with it!

So there you have it! My update journal!
Dang.......that was super long winded Sorry if you had to suffer through all the reading If you just skipped to the end, I understand perfectly.....I find myself doing that sometimes too
But no matter, I appreciate you guys for reading this, and for bearing with me all this time!
Much love to you all, and as always, take care guys

~animedugan

Hey guys!
I know it's been a while, and I usually post about topics I find important or serious on most of my journals....but I thought I'd switch it up a bit.
It's a bit random, but I hope it gives even the slightest uplift to your day
So I work at a retail store (I had to get a new job since the previous one took away most of my hours.....ughhhh) that plays a lot of hip hop, rap, or in general newer songs. And one of those songs.....get this.....plays the song Bad Blood by Taylor Swift. And I instantly bust out laughing every time I hear it.

Why? Game Grumps, that's why.

Every time I hear this song, I instantly start remembering when Arin and Danny made fun of the song and how....well.....not so good it is
If you want to see what I mean, I linked the short clip itself to this journal below:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=zHkaNf…
And if you loved the clip (or just liked it.....whatever ), I definitely recommend watching Game Grumps in the future! (I will link their channel here ----->) www.youtube.com/channel/UC9Cuv…

Anyways, I know this was pretty short, but I really wanted to share this with you guys.
And no worries! I am getting back to art, I have just been trying to balance that along with work (and other stuff....more personal stuff anyways).
Thank you all for your continued support and as always, take care guys
~animedugan